Narcissists

You make me happy

You make me sad

You make me love

You make me proud

You make me hate

You make me wait

You make me suffer

You make me perplexed

You make my tolerant

You make me suicidal

You make me hurt

You make me scared

You make me worse

You made me feel like your were my blessing and all you turned out was to be a curse. The old me loved the new me can’t, I don’t want to waist more time on you or bother going on a rant. My body hurts, my mind is sick, I can’t believe I fell for you over again..your world was lost and I was burden ..I got so spiritually hungry I wanted you to live and you were trying to kill. You never wanted God it was just a facade. You really had me believe when you said were in love when you wanted to buy a big house and make me your wife, when I turned around and saw it was nothing but a lie. You don’t take me seriously you make matters worse, your excuses get better and better and the pain gets worse. I need to stay away but the love is so great it’s all I ever had until you took it away. Here we go with problems in the way, for some reason I can’t see that you’re not truthful I just see how I’m just being a fool for … my love that doesn’t even exist. You take my kindness for weakness that’s  what scares me the most, I’m tired of crying, screaming and yelling. It’s not worth it anymore, it’s now time that this girl shows you the door!

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If we’re honest

If I have to prove anything to you, it shows you never knew me from the start!

Soldier for God

When you sign your name on the dotted line to enlist in the military, you’re signing your life over saying you’re willing to die for what you believe. How much more would you be willing to do for your God in heaven?

iPromise

Hanging on to broken promises by a thread, hoping one day we would see eye to eye again.

Insanely curious as to why delusion shot to my head like a narcotic, and my heart rebelliously fell for a thief, a robber, with the intentions of helping me, to only hurt me. Stealing my heart, and mishandling it as if it were worthless as hay and stubble, and then…I remembered, your very words.

“I would never do anything to intentionally hurt you.” I’ve overdosed I’ve gotten so high off of your broken promises everything else is permissible, and it’s not fair, I’ve been opened up to involuntary pain, and suffering, and now, … now it’s time to trade in my anger towards you, for the prince of peace. I don’t have to worry anymore about the time, because my father is the author, and the finisher, the beginning and the ending, time is in his hands, and I will trust him. His promises will fail me not, I’m positive and so sure.

See the problem is I’ve gone astray and was close to the fence and as my Shepard it’s time for him to pull me in again.

iPromise, and I vow to never let “temporary” interfere between eternity.

Boundaries 

Learning to implement boundaries in relationships for proper growth almost never happens over night. There’s nothing wrong with reteaching individuals how to treat you, they’ll never know until their taught. People will always treat you how you let them, if they have been treating you poorly and it’s never been addressed, why stop now? Failures are tough but if you learn from them they make you even tougher! Remembering that we’re all in different places sometimes allows us to see the larger picture as opposed to our personal point of view. Everyday we must remember wisdom is far greater than anything, we must implement wisdom into our lives and situations so that we might learn from it.

Queen 👸 

Young girl fasten your pants!

Young girl cover your chest!

Young lady value yourself!

Young lady know your worth!

Young woman lift up a standard!

Young woman be an example!

You are far more than cameras, and photos, your more than an option or late night call! Look in the mirror and realize you are all you have, you are one of a kind, you are worth more than a dime, you are royalty, priceless, undefeated and worthy! Don’t criticize yourself by talking about Gods art work, celebrities are acting don’t think that it’s true, they have the same struggles just like me and you! Only way you should conform into something your not, is when God is molding you and shapping you into something far more beautiful! The only time you should be weak willed and easily influenced is when the Lord ask you to do something for his kingdom. 

Perspective 

If we continue looking at life through the loophole of our pain we will not only fail others but we will fail ourselves. 

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