If I have to prove anything to you, it shows you never knew me from the start!
Lord, I’ve reached a new level of brokenness
When you sign your name on the dotted line to enlist in the military, you’re signing your life over saying you’re willing to die for what you believe. How much more would you be willing to do for your God in heaven?
“They say, If a man put away his wife, and she go from him, and become another man’s, shall he return unto her again? shall not that land be greatly polluted? but thou hast played the harlot with many lovers; yet return again to me, saith the Lord.”
Jeremiah 3:1 KJV
“For as a young man marrieth a virgin, so shall thy sons marry thee: and as the bridegroom rejoiceth over the bride, so shall thy God rejoice over thee.”
Isaiah 62:5 KJV
“Thou shalt have no other gods before me. Thou shalt not make unto thee any graven image, or any likeness of any thing that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth: Thou shalt not bow down thyself to them, nor serve them: for I the Lord thy God am a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children unto the third and fourth generation of them that hate me;”
Exodus 20:3-5 KJV
“Though thou, Israel, play the harlot, yet let not Judah offend; and come not ye unto Gilgal, neither go ye up to Beth–aven, nor swear, The Lord liveth.”
Hosea 4:15 KJV
“I’m reserved until God is ready to share me!
I sincerely apologize for being double minded in all of my ways, for I have been deliberately disobedient. Papa, you said that anything we put before you is an idol. You are a jealous God, and I know this, and I STILL purposely sinned. Papa, as your bridegroom, I understand that our time is short here on earth, and so is your mercy! I have been weak willed and easily influenced by my flesh, and the enemy, and it’s my own fault for not consulting anything with you in prayer. Lord, I have only been consistent with being in the state of inconsistency, with prayer, fasting, and supplication! Lord, I have walked out on you, as a harlot from her husband. I’ve fallen as David did in adulatory with Bathsheba. I’ve fallen far to short, and you continue extending your grace and mercy. It baffles me to know that I was made in your image, and that I am your daughter, and I’ve yet to inherit your trait of forgiveness. I understand that, that’s something I need to work on. When I rise and fall, you continue loving me and giving me hope that tomorrow will be far greater.
Lord, you said no sin is greater than another, why is that I’ve walked away from you, and you haven’t left me. Lord, you said to let God be true, and Everyman a liar! Papa you haven’t divorced me, but you’ve given me yet, another chance. I’ll always love you, and appreciate your kindness and mercy, you are far greater than I’ll ever be, or could ever imagine. I sincerely appreciate you, and I am ready to return to my first love, as Israel did in Hosea, I now understand why my world has been falling apart, it was simply because you needed to remove everything out of my path so you could allure me into the wilderness and comfort me as you did Israel, and I am ready to submit . . .
To be continued
You are far more precious and deserve so much more, if he doesn’t treat you well, show him the door. Remain a lady and always be humble the Lord has someone for you so don’t trip or stumble. He is going to love honor and respect you, so don’t worry about if he won’t text you! There’s a difference between a man and a boy, one has a job one plays with toys! If we want to be honest I am the one who was blind, I was crazy I was foolish I missed all of the signs. Maybe one day when my heart is mature again, I’ll never be fooled by another BOY like you again! 🎤😎
I guess I can’t really be upset, you told me you would never hurt me, but I never noticed you were just molding me into a person and didn’t deserve me.
My father said I’m far more precious than rubies, I’m a Proverbs 31 woman, and you though that you could use me, like a welcome matt, you can come and go as you please, but I’m turning things around and I want my keys! The keys that you stole from my my hands to my heart, I’ll never let another boy borrow my heart to treat it so poorly and protect theirs! I promise this isn’t operation it’s not a game or a toy, I was completely misused by a “Man” and not a “Boy”.
The frustrating thing is while you were in disguise I was so naive to believe all do your lies, I’ve grown, I’ve learned only God can change me, I’ll remember that the next time one of you “Men” try to play me!
Hanging on to broken promises by a thread, hoping one day we would see eye to eye again.
Insanely curious as to why delusion shot to my head like a narcotic, and my heart rebelliously fell for a thief, a robber, with the intentions of helping me, to only hurt me. Stealing my heart, and mishandling it as if it were worthless as hay and stubble, and then…I remembered, your very words.
“I would never do anything to intentionally hurt you.” I’ve overdosed I’ve gotten so high off of your broken promises everything else is permissible, and it’s not fair, I’ve been opened up to involuntary pain, and suffering, and now, … now it’s time to trade in my anger towards you, for the prince of peace. I don’t have to worry anymore about the time, because my father is the author, and the finisher, the beginning and the ending, time is in his hands, and I will trust him. His promises will fail me not, I’m positive and so sure.
See the problem is I’ve gone astray and was close to the fence and as my Shepard it’s time for him to pull me in again.
iPromise, and I vow to never let “temporary” interfere between eternity.
I am a victim of substance abuse, and I have been for several years, the people who were supposed to help me have hurt me, and I have continued to turn back to them time and time again. I am addicted to hurt, and it’s like a substance that I’ve become immune to, I try to quit cold turkey but I suffer from daily withdraws. I’ve reached my maximum capacity, and the next high that I get could very well be my last high. It’s time to step away permanently from these toxic relationships, and people. I have accepted this challenge, and I am ready to go to rehab, I must change for my better, because my family and friends are only killing me softly.
I was an easy target until I decided to set the tone by becoming the arrow!
“Without rain nothing grows learn to embrace the storms of your life.”
I decided to dance in the rain a little or a lot, not caring about my curls or my dress or stress. I wanted a moment to disown myself and to listen to the earths beauty and realize it cries out sometimes too. No greater peace approached me when I stoped running between the raindrops, and decided to just get wet. Rain is calm, it grows what was once dead, the wild flower is going to rise, the grass is going to grow, and my heart is going to blossom. Thank God for the rain, and for the growth!