I have longed to be close with you, but I make little effort, in the eyes of many believers I’m doing well, and I’m an inspiration. I feel numb, and like I’m in a dry place but I’m going to continue striving for excellence and fulfilling the purpose you have for me on earth. I have yet to bring someone into the church, and give them various bible studies, but speaking to me, I am a witness alone. Jesus, I really need you more than ever before, your drawing me in closer but my spirit is willing but my flesh is week, please help me cast down every imaginary thought, and to stay focused on your work. Father I need you more than ever before, please help me. I love you, and I miss being close to you.